Smile =]

Today not really good in mood...I'm trying to smile but still not happy at all...It's fake smile...It doesn't look like me...I wearing whole day of spectacle but then no longer i feel dizzy...Maybe I'm too hard using my eyes,need some rest but when I close my eyes my favorite song melody keep shown in my brain,it's a sad song and romantic...Tears fall apart...I feel tired with this feeling...Will it stop one day?

Smile girl,smile =] You sure can do it...It's not a dream but it is the past of me...I remembered when I'm little I was not smiling at all...When taking picture my parents forced me to smile...I shown the fake smile and it's really fake...

The first time I smiled was in elementary school Standard 4 =] So I'm trying to find back this feelings...Since when,when I'm trying to make my parents happy i try to smile to them but what I get are they thought I'm foolish,immature,childish...When i don't smile they said I'm furious,like all people steps my tail...I don't understand,what happened to all the people surroundings of me...It is my problem or their problems?

Never mind,I just do back my oneself and maybe everything will be ok =] JUST SMILE