True Friendship? Fake Friendship?

Today KY absent because she went to Ching Ming , I feel like something free in my heart... I don't need to care about anything when I talk... I discuss with SS about my feelings... She told me don't worry,just I worry too much and she shown me a letter that before she and KY wrote about me... I don't wanted to mention what they wrote inside...

Just feel like betrayed feeling inside me... sadness are keep attacking me... I keep thinking is it because I'm a committee so she wanted to fawn me so the future years she can be a committee too? or that's only my selfishness? I'm lost... but what to do... that's not my fault...

In school many fun la >.< when ICT I keep laughing cause me,SS and CK keep making jokes LOL XD

I'm going to marry in STEPS ONLINE! XD HOORAY~ CONGRATS CONGRATS XD

Lastly another things that make me happy with tears is "him"... He came online at msn and find me chat i was shock >.< He say he feel like want to disturb me.. so from 8pm chat until 11pm >.< when it's gonna off he told me that "don't know why he still think that he like to rely on me..maybe he trust me too much bah" that's another thing that shocked me and makes me cries >.< What happened to me again? Shouldn't I forgotten the days that we been together? Why when I'm going to forget him that time he came and told me those things? I wish I still have chance... to love him...